Happy New Year! I hope that 2013 is a great one for all of us. I got off to a fantastic start by releasing the first part of my Pope Joan story just a few days ago. What started out as a play, turned into a novel, which turned into a trilogy! Little did I know that it would become such a massive project, but it has been such a wonderful experience writing it. The research has been so fascinating - a whole period of history that I knew almost nothing about has been opened up to me and Joan herself is like a real person now - someone who I think about and wonder about almost obsessively.
In fact I have to confess, I am totally in love with her. I even found myself posting this 'Ode To Pope Joan' on my Facebook Wall, whilst I was writing part 3, where she really comes into her own!
I am obsessed with
you…
I wake up in the night
thinking about you
Questioning what is
going on in your mind
Asking what are the
deepest reaches of your soul
I carry you in my
heart and feel your heartbeat right next to mine
I walk and you are
with me
I sleep and you fill
up my dreams
I find myself crying
your tears and trembling with your anger
I love you and I want
you in all your manifestations
I feel your energy
electrify me and make me feel like I too can change the world
You exist for me more
clearly than any other being in the world
Yet you are the
fiction in my head and the words I type with my fingers
You are Pope Joan, my
Pope Joan.
Just a touch besotted...
Book 1 is called 'The Legend Of Pope Joan, Part 1. Frankia' - here are the links:
And here is a short extract from chapter 2 of part 1 to whet your appetite:
On reaching the
orchard at the far end of the village, she slowed down and once out of sight, grabbed
a large stick and began thrashing the ground. “Why? Why? Why?” she shouted, as
she whacked the thickets angrily. She was making such a racket that she did not
notice the young man approaching her from the left.
“Hello, Pickle!
What’s gotten into you?” he asked. It was Michael, her favourite person after
her father. He was carrying a large basket of apples in one arm and a small
wooden ladder under the other. But the sight of him did not cheer her up, even
though she had not seen him for a while. Instead of her usual hug, she gave him
a shove. “Don’t call me ‘Pickle’ or I’ll pickle you!” she snapped.
Michael swayed a
little but she had not hurt him. “Sorry, Pickle – I shall never call you Pickle
again!” he giggled.
This time she
pushed him with more force and he dropped the basket, scattering the apples on
the ground before regaining his balance. “Do not jest with me, Michael – I am
not in the mood.”
“Good heavens, Joan! What’s the matter
with you? I’ve never seen you in such a bad humour.”
She looked at
his concern and instantly felt guilty and shocked by her actions. Tears welled
up and she rubbed his chest where she had shoved him. “Sorry, please forgive
me, I… I…”
“What, Joan?
What is it?”
“It’s… It’s just…
I wish I’d been born a boy!”
“Why? You’re the
most interesting girl I’ve ever met! Your mind is as sharp as a meat cleaver
and you could outsmart the Pope in three moves!”
“But that’s the problem!
They won’t let me. They won’t allow me to be who I am. They don’t want me to
read books or discuss the Credo. They want me to sweep floors and suckle babies.
By this time next year, I’ll be chained to a man and no doubt be with child too.”
“Oh, Pickle! I hadn’t
thought that far ahead. But you don’t have
to marry. Why not become a nun?”
“They don’t want me to do that either.
They say it isn’t safe. You know how many times the Abbey in Mainz has been
ransacked. If I go there, I’ll end up bearing the infant of a Barbarian instead.
Besides, nuns are boring. All they do is pray all day and grow vegetables.
There’s hardly a book in the convent.”
“Well, maybe they’ll find you a husband
who’ll let you study too - someone who likes arguing with you about God as much
as I do.”
For the first
time in nearly eight weeks, Joan felt a glimmer of hope. She’d been praying and
praying for the Lord to guide her and now a possibility occurred to her. She
looked at Michael through new eyes. “Michael… could you… could we…?”
But Michael put
down the small ladder and placed his hands on her arms, shaking his head. “Pickle,
I’m sorry… but I won’t be getting married… I’m going away…”
Alarm sounded
throughout her body. He was her best friend and now that she had lost her
father’s devotion, Michael was the only one left who understood her. “Away?
When? Where? How? But you can’t!”
“I have to go. I am being
sent… My father has arranged it. I… offended… I offended one of the monks… by
accident… I made a mistake…”
“They’re sending you away
because you offended a monk? But that’s ridiculous. Can you not just apologise?”
“It was a serious offence… They want me
to leave. And besides, I want to dedicate my life to God. As soon as Harvest
has been celebrated, I am going to Athens to train as a priest and I intend to
take a vow of celibacy too. It is better that way.”
“But that’s less than a week away! You
can’t go. You’re my only friend. I’ll be barren without you.”
“And you’ll be barren with me. I cannot
marry, Joan. It would not be wise for me, or for you. You are my eternal friend
but I shall not insult you by taking you as a wife.”
“I don’t understand what you’re talking
about. I don’t want to marry you anyway. I just thought for a moment that there
might be an answer to this nightmare.”
“Trust me, Joan.
You’re not even fourteen so you probably haven’t felt it yet. But soon you will
have needs that I cannot fulfil… You will want a husband who can… will… Aargh!
Just believe me when I say that I would make you miserable. Once you get to sixteen
like me, you’ll understand why it’s important to get it right.”
“If you are talking about wanting babies
then don’t worry – I don’t! I’ve already had enough babies around to last me a
life time.”
“I’m sorry Joan, but I have to leave.
You will meet a man who can give you what I cannot and you will be happy.”
“No I won’t! It
is true, what they say. Women are cursed for all eternity. You have no idea how
blessed you are by being a man.”
Michael looked away sadly and stared deep into the orchard as he spoke. “I’m not sure how much of a blessing
it was in my case…”
Joan shook her
head. She could not understand for one moment why Michael might have thought
being a woman would have been a blessing for him. It did not make any sense. He
had everything she wanted - a future in the Church without question or
obstacle. He was even getting to leave on a huge adventure to one of the
greatest seats of learning in Christendom. However, his melancholic look moved
her, so she went over and put her hand through his arm. “I just wish I could
come with you…”
Michael hugged
her and then held both of her hands and looked at her kindly. “Oh, Pickle. So
do I. You have no idea how scared I am about leaving this place alone or how
much I shall miss you. You’re my only friend…”
“If I were a boy, I would be right by
your side…”
She looked at
the ground, tears falling gently and a sense of hopelessness pervading her
entire being. She remained like that for several moments until she realised
that Michael was staring at her curiously. “Pickle, pull back your hair and let
me look properly at your face,” he asked.
Joan was puzzled,
but obeyed.
“Turn sideways
and let me look at you,” he ordered, and again, she followed his command. “Now hold up your arms.”
This time she
was impatient. “Why, what do you want of me?
“Just do it,
Pickle. I think I may have found a solution.”
“What are you talking
about?”
“Hold up your
arms!”
She stared at
him crossly but he did not relent.
“Hold back your
hair again… that’s it. Yes! Yes! That’s it!!” He shouted in delight, grabbing
her arms and trying to dance with her.
But Joan would
not be moved. She had no idea what had come over him. “What, Michael? You’re
confusing me!”
“Joan. You can come to Athens with me.”
“How?”
“We’ll disguise
you as a boy. You could train to be a priest like me. We could go together.”
For a fleeting instant,
Joan felt hope dart through her body, but it was immediately replaced with
shock. “Have you gone stark raving mad? How can I possibly pretend to be a boy?”
“Joan, your cheeks are chiselled and your
profile strong. If we cut off that mane, you would look just like a boy. I can
hardly see your breasts even from the side and a priest’s robes are generous in
folds. Joan, you could do this! You could study the scriptures and one day
become a priest.”
Imagining this
made her excited and a great joy sprang up from the very foundation of her
being, but soon she was again overcome with doubt, then terror. She shuddered
as she spoke. “No, Michael, I couldn’t. What if I were discovered? They’d stone
me to death. And besides, it would be a great sin. Does it not say in
Deuteronomy chapter twenty-two verse five that ‘A woman shall not wear anything
that pertains to a man, nor shall a man put on a woman’s garment; for whoever
does these things is an abomination to the Lord your God’? I would burn in hell
for all eternity. I cannot possibly do this.”
“Ah, yes.
Deuteronomy and Leviticus. I know those scriptures well… how different my life might
be without them…”
Joan was aghast. “Michael, you insult the word of the
Lord! You should be ashamed of yourself! I will speak no more about this with
you. We are soiled and shamed by such contemplation. I shall leave now before
we offend our Heavenly Father yet more! Let’s meet at the Harvest Festival in
Mainz before you leave, and then I shall risk the Barbarians and join the
nunnery – it is the only solution. God will protect me if I trust in Him
enough.”
“But…”
Joan put her
hand over his mouth. “No ‘buts’, Michael. We cannot speak of this again. Let’s
pretend we never discussed it.”
“Very well. But I
still think it’s a good idea,” he said, bending down to tend the overturned
basket and handing her an apple whilst swiftly gathering up the rest. She had
no desire to eat it yet so put it in her pocket for later. Then she turned on
her heel, without saying goodbye, leaving him staring after her. Her whole body
had turned to pins and needles and she could barely walk in a straight line. No! I must not think on it… she said to
herself as she imagined being disguised as a boy. But no matter how hard she tried,
she could not purge the sinful vision from her mind and so started running
fiercely towards her house, hoping to distract herself from the flame that had
lit up inside her.
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Legend-Pope-Joan-Frankia-ebook
http://www.amazon.com/Legend-Pope-Joan-Frankia-ebook
Look forward to hearing your thoughts and reading your reviews!
Many thanks
Rachel
xxxxxx